Let go and let God?

My religion demands too much of me. It asks me to submit wholly and completely to God's will and sometimes I am unable or unwilling to do so. I have my own interpretations as to how one should observe faith and religion and it conflicts with the prescribed notion.

I've once described myself as a progressive Catholic. I believe religion ought to enhance your current life not stifle it, and certainly not morally dictate it. I take scriptures as 'suggestions' not the law. Apparently that is considered blasphemous.

I've always been a firm believer of being in control of my own destiny. The very idea that my future is fated or pre-destined does not sit well with me. I've always believed in free will and relish the idea of freedom of choice. Sometimes organised religion is far too rigid and stifling to accommodate the human spirit.

That doesn't mean that I don't pray every now and then for divine intervention, because God knows I need it. I take comfort in the knowledge that my faith sustains me and provides an avenue of hope when it feels like I'm teetering over the edge. That is when I will let go and let God.